I’ve been thinking about a lot of “What If” questions lately.  Today sitting in church I was listening to the pastor talk about how this particular church was trying to be different than others.  I got to thinking about this and asked myself the question… “What if the church stopped trying to be the church, [...]

Happy New Years to you. I pray that Gods blessing and provision for what you need is made known to you this new year and that you will draw closer to Him.
Tonight after I got home I was talking with a family member about resolutions that we had made for this new year. I shared [...]

I will wait for You patiently
Praying from my deepest point of need
I was listening to this song called ‘Wait’ by a band called By the Tree this evening.  This song is pretty old, but wow this is where I am at right now.  Its been a long two months and the search continues for a [...]

Preface: I don’t mean to offend anyone.  Specifically family members who may read this, just making it clear that it is my response to things in life. 
 
The other night I was reading through a book that I read a few years ago.  It deals with specific relationships and it got my mind thinking about something [...]

“The health and life of the church rests in the spiritual examples the elders model. The problem in the church today is not the absence of innovative programs, financial giving, or dynamic preachers and teachers. The problem is in the leadership team.” – Found on the internet a few years ago.

So it makes me wonder. Through the experiences that I have had at church why restoration, isn’t really restoration.  I have seen two pastors, I personally know, fail morally in the positions they held, one in particular was in the very church that I was attending.  Why is it that we as believers never reached [...]

I’ve been wresting around this past evening with what to write exactly.  I’m still not sure I’ve come to a complete conclusion, and what I write may be a mess, but here it goes.  
To be honest, I’ve had quite a bit of things on my mind as of late.  Some of those things I [...]

Yesterday morning I finished up John Piper’s book “Don’t Waste your Life”.  It was a great book, but a book I thought that the points could have been better defined and brought to a quicker attention rather than the drawn out process that Piper followed throughout the book.  Anyway, as I worked my way through [...]

My friend, Danny, shared this quote on his blog the other day.  This one hurts.  Sad thing, like many other things – I won’t do much about this.  
“If you REALLY believe in the saving power of Jesus Christ then why in the world would you show up at church every single Sunday without a [...]

I love this realistic picture Ronald Rolheiser paints of the church.
To be connected with the church is to be associated with scoundrels, warmongers, fakes, child-molesters, murders, adulterers, and hypocrites of every description.  It also, at the same time, identifies you with saints and the finest persons of heroic soul within every time, country, race, and gender. To [...]

Honestly I don’t have much to say.  I hate when I get like this.  I feel like I am just rambling, but on the flip side I feel like I need to write something.  I mean…what’s the point of a blog if you don’t write anything anyway.  
I guess I will share something that I [...]

Today I was catching up on some podcasts from last week that I had not gotten a chance to listen to. I listen to two on a regular basis, as I have probably mentioned before, but one of them is Cornerstone Simi church in Simi Valley, CA. I can’t quite remember how I [...]

I think this is a really one…for a few days anyway. I’ve had a bit on my mind since yesterday morning and I’m processing it yet.  In some aspects I’m not sure how to or what to do with it.  Maybe if just needs to go into my private journal for safe keeping.  But with [...]

There isn’t much to this post other than the fact that I have a lot on my heart right now.  Lot’s of personal stuff that I’ve been thinking about today.  I’ve know I’ve been neglecting the fact that I have some stuff I need to deal with, and allowing God to change me.  I’m simply [...]

Marriage.  This one scares me.  Not sure why.  I’m afraid of failure I suppose.  I’m afraid of not being suited for a particular moment or time when someone or a family depends on me.  I’m afraid of being someone I don’t want to be, and don’t know how to change that.  Sometimes I lay awake [...]