The Coldest of Hearts.
Posted by Chris on Friday, October 10th, 2008
Preface: I don’t mean to offend anyone. Specifically family members who may read this, just making it clear that it is my response to things in life.
The other night I was reading through a book that I read a few years ago. It deals with specific relationships and it got my mind thinking about something I’ve thought about several times over the past. I finally wrote down some of my thoughts. So here it is.
I’ve contemplated this a few times in the past, but never really put into words the thoughts and feelings I’ve had toward this. This ever growing coldness in my heart. It seems it has manifested itself in ways and in area’s I only see on rare glimpses. And yet I know it consumes me. I’ve seen how it changes me and how I don’t reach out or care for others. So much from my past: Family, Some friends, work….church. I’ve put this guard of fear of being hurt, of apathy and lack of concern for others, up. I’ve been hurt, bruised, and beaten. My heart was so open, so willing to reach out to others, to serve and love. Coldness creeped in. Coldness took over and has consumed this beating heart. My flame has dwindled and I believe has died out. I’m calous and numb. I only seem to feel pain. Somehow I know I can not change this. Only He can warm this coldest of heart.
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hey man sorry I am somewhat confused. Are your writing the quoted portion or is that part from the book? Sorry for my not known.
The quoted part is my writing. It’s what I wrote in my journal.