I think this is a really one…for a few days anyway. I’ve had a bit on my mind since yesterday morning and I’m processing it yet.  In some aspects I’m not sure how to or what to do with it.  Maybe if just needs to go into my private journal for safe keeping.  But with that said, I believe I am going to at least take a break from blogging any of the Confession stuff at this point until at least Monday.  Life is a bit Chaotic and was hoping I could at least finish out to the 20th of June giving me 20 Confessions of sort.  But I will try to still reach that goal by the end of the month, but it’s simply not going to happen in the first 20 days as I hoped.

I hope to fill you in on some of the life happenings as of late, and as I make a major transition in my life.  I’ve had some additional thoughts, continues fears and insecurities.  But I am pretty sure that God is leading me to do this and make this step in life.

The short of it is, I’ve become dissatisfied, depressed, directionless, and just out right visionless in life.  I’m not sure how to change it were I am at.  I’m not sure that anyone here can come beside me and help me through this time where I am currently at either.  It’s time to move on, to step out and take that risk.

It’s not about me, what I accomplish or what I do.  But its about who I am, as Christ’s adopted child.  How I glorify God in all that I do, and achieve.  Its not about God blessing me, or living my best life now.  Its about God rocking my world, flipping it upside down and to think about, share, love, serve others.  Not myself.

This is more than I wanted to write tonight. I’m going to bed.

Tags: authenticity, Confessions, transparent

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