I guess this one kinda goes along with the past two posts as well in the fact that I struggle with reading.  Reading the Bible.  I’ve always been taught or encouraged to read, read in a way that was more of a habit, bound by time and a specific way of handling the scripture.  I think it was done this way to form some sort of structure, but did little to appreciate…or um love the fact that it was God’s word given to me, and this is something that I should want to do, something that I wanted to interact with.  Not in some sort of magical sense that it would make my day better, in a way it does provides a nurishment for our soul, but it doesn’t necessarily make our day to day life better.  I’m also very cautious to determine my relationship with God on the  factor of how much I am reading my Bible (you know that little quiet time, usually 15 minutes we try to squeeze in before going to bed, or some other distracting time).  I think this is a very unhealthy approach and causes me to rely more on what I know, or what I “obtained” or “get out of it”, rather the relationship that I have with God himself.  We make it a idol and can control the bible, so that it behaves on our terms. We get what we want.

There seems to be a disconnect in the fact that I miss that it’s God’s word written.  It is His self expression.  It’s His way of conveying to us who He is.  This is how we learn who God is, this is how we relate and have fellowship with God.

I think there is some correlation with meditating on God’s word and trusting in the Lord.  There is a relational aspect to the scripture. In Psalms 1 and Jeremiah 17  there is a correlation between the exchange of this meditation and trusting.  We are commanded to meditate on the Law of the Lord.  It’s there to trust in the God of who’s scripture it was.

I don’t know about you, but I struggle with this.  I’m not quite sure how this looks.  Honestly I guess, the relationship was really never demonstrated to me growing up.  It was not really something that ‘clicked’.  Maybe it was just me, cause I tend to not grasp things like this at times.

I struggle with reading the bible on a regular basis, even at all,  a lot of times.  Sadly its not a priority, and I’m kinda scared to make it into one in fear that I will just make it a habit and reduce my relationship to one that is measured by time, and amount.

Tags: authenticity, Confession, transparent

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