Drop it like it’s Hot.
Posted by Chris on Friday, April 25th, 2008
It seems that I just have a hard time letting some things go. If you’ve read my post about forgiveness (see below a few posts), this is some of what I am talking about. I have a hard time grasping onto the reality that my thoughts, frustrations, bitterness, anger, etc can be forgiven by God, and when it comes to forgiving others. I’m not so sure if I really have..when I still have these feelings and thoughts.
To me its like I’m trying to climb a greased rope and making my way to the top. This analogy hits home cause I was never really good at shimming up ropes, tree’s, poles, etc. It’s not that I don’t believe I can be forgiven…it’s just hard for me to realize the reality of it, thinking I don’t deserve it, and to some extent having resentment towards it. I guess, perhaps, through my experience with others its been really hard to experience grace, love, forgiveness. This is not to blame others. But I think we get pre-conceived ideas through interactions with the way others treat us. If they do it this way…”does God view me the same way?”, is something I often ask myself.
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